FREE ESSAY ON CRAVING PERFECTION

CRAVING PERFECTION

Craving Perfection
"... Nobody knew, I would eat enough for four, go to the washroom after every meal, or
starve for three days straight. For ten years, nobody knew I had a problem with food-I
fooled everybody. Nobody knew, not even me, that my eating disorder was never about food,
I had been feeding myself love, safety, security and strength. I could conquer the world,
be anybody, d anything when I was eating. When I felt I was loosing control of my eating,
I starved and immediately, I regained control." This statement comes from Sheila Mather,
author of Leaving Food Behind. In this autobiographical book she discusses her long
battle with eating disorders.
Eating disorders affect many people throughout the world. Unfortunately anorexia is on
the up rise in our society. In the United States there are at least 8,000,000 victims.
Upsettingly, six to eight percent of these cases die. A whopping 90% of anorexics are
women, although the percentage of males with eating disorders is increasing. This topic
is not to be taken lightly; people are starving themselves to "perfection".
Anorexia Nervosa as defined in The American College Dictionary is; a disorder usually
occurring in teenage women, characterized by a fear of obesity; a distorted self-image,
an aversion to food and severe weight loss. However, this disease impacts a person in
many more ways than what is defined. It is both an emotional and physical disease. It is
an obsession that usually begins as a diet to loose a few pounds.
For many victims it is an issue of control. Anorexia Nervosa usually strikes those who
have problems with friends or family. They blame themselves if they don't get perfect
grades, or if other things in their life are not perfect. People with anorexia believe
they would be happier and more successful if they were thin. They feel that controlling
what they eat they compensate for other issues that are not in their hands. They feel a
sense of accomplishment when they go without eating, and they loathe in guilt when they
give in and eat. As a result of this guilt they will rely on laxatives and appetite
suppressants. 
A young woman by the name of Christine died from anorexia nervosa at the age of
twenty-two. She struggled with this disease for seven years. Her weight drastically
dropped from 120 to 60 pounds. At times she was known to swallow up to 150 laxatives a
day. 
A common subtype of anorexia is bulimia. Anorexics will self-induce vomiting after
eating. At times they will binge, eating everything in sight. Although this illness is
just as threatening to the body, people with bulimia usually don't lose as much weight as
people with anorexia. 
Society plays a major role in the development of this disease. Magazines and television
place pressure on young women to be skinny. They strive to be "perfect" in society. Judy
Sargent, a recovered anorexic comments on society's part in the number of people
struggling with eating disorders: " I believe that the media has a profound impact on
young girls/women (and increasingly men) in our culture. Young people in our society are
socialized to believe that the emaciated (starved) bodies of models portrayed in
magazines and on television are the 'American ideal'". An anorexic will avoid eating to
the point of emaciation where the damage to his or her body is irreversible. Once the
disease takes over they can no longer make realistic judgements on their body. They have
distorted body images. 
Anorexia affects the body in a multitude of ways. Starvation causes many complications,
other than the obvious weight loss Hypothermia is a result of the loss of the body's
natural insulation (body fat). This drop in body temperature causes an anorexic to be
cold constantly. The body will put up a natural defense by producing fine hair all over
the body. Another result of anorexia nervosa is hyperactivity. Most anorexics will
exercise compulsively to get rid of unwanted calories, and loose more weight. This
obsession will lead to excessive energy until later in the disease. Hyperactivity will
also cause sleeplessness, or insomnia in most patients. Amenorrhea occurs in female
anorexics. Severe weight loss will affect a woman's menstrual cycle and cause her to go
without at least three menstrual cycles. People with anorexia also have thinning hair on
their head and dry skin.
Anorexia affects the victim in ways other than physically. An anorexic becomes withdrawn.
They become isolated. This isolation leads to a vicious cycle. The victim becomes lonely
and feels as though she is not good enough, which again leads to an obsession with weight
loss. Eating is no longer a social event it becomes ritualistic. The little food that an
anorexic consumes is usually cut into tiny pieces and eaten in total privacy. They will
avoid situations that they know food will be available, such as restaurants and meals
with families. They will loose interest in activities that they once enjoyed. They will
engross themselves in schoolwork and dieting. They become overachievers in their work and
they usually get grades that are above average.
Treatment of this illness is very difficult because the anorexic is usually in denial. He
or she does not feel that they are sick they simply think that they are fat. Most serious
anorexics need hospitalization. Judy Sargent also comments on her battle with anorexia:
"I was 15, my weight had dropped to 80 pounds, and I was first hospitalized for anorexia
nervosa. Within another couple of years, my weight was down to 65 pounds." It took
Sargent twenty-six visits to the hospital before she completely began her recovery. This
proves that treatment involves more than changing a person's eating habits. Counseling is
often needed so they can work on changing the feelings that are causing their eating
problems. Some patients are prescribed medicines that help them feel less depressed. Love
is the best type of medicine that can be given in daily doses by friends and family. 
In conclusion, the following statement is again from Sheila Mather. "Then one bright
sunny spring day, the sunlight shone upon me, exposing the person I had become. Student
and employee by day-binger, purger, exerciser and starver by night. I felt revolted but
couldn't run. I could no longer binge, purge, starve or overeat-my body was utterly
exhausted. My emotions were painful well beyond my control. My recovery began. For the
next four years, I experienced emotions I held inside me, emotions that I previously had
been too afraid to feel."